Seeing Without Seeing, Dreaming Without Dreams.

I hang on your every word
Without ever seeing your lips
I imagine our hugs
Though I’ve never touched your hips

You’re read my expressions
Without seeing my eyes
You’re felt every pain
Though you’ve never heard my cries

We’ve watched TV together
But never at the same time
We’ve sang together
But I can’t hear your chime

I come home, in hopes of you
You’re never really there…
I go to sleep with thoughts of you
You’re in every prayer

You tell me how special I am
I do it for you
You say you couldn’t give a damn
I have no clue

We’ve made promises
Without seeing reactions
We’ve showed true friendship
Without any actions

I make every decision
Thinking of you first
With exact precision
Of your initial burst

Though I hated words
You got me to talk
And if I hated birds
You’d convince me to buy a hawk

When I sulk, I yearn for you
I think of what you’d say
I think of your conclusion
It gets me through the day


You’ve said amazing things
I never imagined could be for me
You think I’m better than I am
That I’m being all that I can be

You, you’re proud of this
Of all the possibility
I’d never argue with that
I can see our mobility

I’m to light the lives around me
You’ve said I’m the sun
To embrace the gift I’m given
Though I feel more like a gun

I’m content for now
But pressing on
Living in the hope
That you are never gone

Life without you
Would be life without life
Nothing more, nothing less
Than unbearable strife

Searching for every smile
Though no desire for one
All the while
It’s begun…

Scared of more, but black is black
Every break down, every tear
Never holding back
The slip into sliding fear

I’d ask for death
But it would never come
Striving for the end
Until I finally succumb